I saw his car today
Early morning, far too early,
While I drove in hesitation
To the home of other friends.
But I discovered, in raw wonder
(After the first rapid heartbeats
Settled into my heaving chest),
That I suddenly felt clarity
About our affair’s decayed and decaying
Imperfect immortality.
You see, I was so convinced
That you were THE ONE —
And then

I saw his car today
Early morning, far too early,
Still, impossibly clear thoughts
Cleared my clumsy mind.
Although my slumbering heart
Still shrieks nightmares of sharing you
With any other,
And I sleep without peace,
My waking mind sighed understanding
That I must have ben only a diversion,
Because

I saw his car today
Early morning, far too early,
Then I spent hell’s minutes,
Gasping, grasping and grappling
With unfair and shattering images
Of you with another. But still,
Better for me to believe
That you went back to him
Then forward to a stranger.
Still

I saw his car today
Early morning for you, but too late for us
I tried to embrace a comfort
Ater all, you were no longer crying
— Angels should not cry —

“Till death do us part, or
Till parts of us should die,
We will reign together, glorious.”

This we did, and did well